I can tell that the let-down over not getting that job is finally settling in. I feel a bit listless and depressed about it, yet at the same time, I’m still praising God for his protection. Oh, and I’m very thankful for your sweet prayers and encouraging words.
Maybe I should change my name to Sybil…
I know that it’s perfectly normal to feel disappointed about things not working out as I had planned, but at the same time, I want to truly stand in awe about how God is guiding and directing every detail of my life. These two feelings oscillate within me, wreaking havoc on my emotions. After snapping at The Girl and then apologizing to her for being unjustly frustrated with her, I tried to explain what is going on in me, but I think I left her more confused than anything. How do you explain something that you don’t fully understand yourself?
Character. God’s building character… and hope and perseverance and a whole bunch of other stuff that I need but don’t necessarily want right now. How’s that for honesty?
We had the pleasure of Mr. Right’s parents company this weekend. When I asked what Mr. Right wanted for his birthday, he said, “I wish I could see my family. That would be the best gift.” So I called them up and begged them to come for a visit. Fortunately, it all worked out with work and health.
They took us out for Indian cuisine, which Mr. Right loved. He’s so adventuresome when it comes to food. I know God did that on purpose because if Mr. Right had his dithers, he would be a missionary, and we all know that missionaries have to have stomachs of steel!
The time together with them was so precious. It was wonderful not feeling like we had to entertain them, but rather, we all talked, relaxed, started a puzzle (which only I have worked on Avon!) and generally enjoyed the presence of each other. Throw in that they bought the kids some much needed pants and you can see how the weekend was perfect. :)
The grandparents escaped just in time though. On Sunday, Mr. Right awoke with a head cold or a bad case of allergies. The Girl followed suit after spending the night with a friend and staying up until the early hours of the morning. They both took really long naps after church, which suited me just fine. While making brownies for the Teen Group, I watched a crummy Chiefs-Raiders game and then an exciting Chargers-Broncos game, followed with a shot of Steelers-Browns. (I always root for the Browns. I always feel so sorry for them. They try so hard, and yet, year after year, they come out on the losing end. Poor Browns. I want them to have several wins, just so those players can get a boost of confidence.)
Can I just say that the only time I waver on my “No Cable” policy is during the football season? I hate having an extremely small selections of games to watch. Sometimes I’m tempted to take on the cable expense just so that I won’t be stuck with limited game selections. Seriously, I would have loved to see the Colts last second win over the Vikings or the Giants spank the Rams. I guess this is part of the suffering that will build more of that character stuff that I don’t really want to learn right now. ;)
Today my tasks are simple. I have an interview at 11 AM, so I’ll go get ready for that in a few. I’d still appreciate prayers about a job… Mr. Right is in bed, sleeping to give his body ample time to thwart this head cold, so I’ll be taking care of him too. I think Susanne’s Taco Soup should be on the menu tonight, so I’ll make a batch of that brothy food. And last, and least, I’ll clean up for the coffee time at my house tomorrow. So far it’s just Smeagle and me, but I’m hoping the other ladies will be able to join us too. (Don’t worry. My attitude will be properly adjusted by then, and I’ll be back to my optimistic self. I know me too well. A day of moping is usually all I need.)
Though it’s my blog, I want you to tell me something that you’re looking forward to this week because after reading what I just wrote, I’m sick of me. Let’s make it about someone else now – you! :)