This morning I was emphatically labeled unempathetic.
This after being told I was “inconsiderate, rude and socially obtuse” yesterday.
If I keep this up, I may just hit the life-long goal of receiving the “Worst Woman to Walk the Earth” award. I might as well go for gold, right?
Why do people have to say words that hurt so much? Especially when they’re not true?
Am I such a tyrant, really such a self-centered person? Do I truly give an air of being unsympathetic or uncaring when others are in pain, in need, hurting?
Oh. My. Lands. I must be a A-level, top of the charts, poster child of all that is wrong with society when it comes to understanding others.
Yes, I must have been completely unempathetic, thoughtless and rude when I:
- used my “me time” to assist a family member when they misused their time and didn’t get things done as they should have
- reminded someone they can make it through the day on less sleep than they wish they had
- have little patience for people who refuse to change when they complain about their situation
- organized a meal calendar for a neighbor in need
- held my tongue when someone was lashing out at me when they were cranky or upset about something else
- reminded someone I’m not someone who can be treated like a doormat because they’re having a rough day
- worked diligently and hard on a task, knowing I would not receive any credit for it, just to help someone out
- jumped into action when someone “forgot” they had to bring a snack for school – that day
- dashed from the bus to home so that someone would make it to work on time
- worked late into the night on a task for someone else despite wanting nothing more than to crawl into bed
- worked a three hour shift on a weekend to support a child in a beloved activity
- gave a massage to someone when that person had been truly inconsiderate to me that same day
- did the dishes so that someone could play computer
- refused to say “I told you so” when the situation warranted such a response
- held someone accountable to their word
- put my goals on hold so someone could achieve theirs
- did someone’s work because they weren’t feeling well
- brought soup to someone at work because they were fighting a really bad cold
- smiled and became cheerful for someone else when all I wanted to do was cry
- searched high and low for the “perfect gift”
- didn’t say anything because I didn’t want to have a fight/be considered “difficult” again
- gave up my dessert because someone didn’t get one
- supported someone regardless of not agreeing with the decision
- advised someone to make changes if they didn’t like the way things were going after making poor choices
- prepared meals for someone who was having a rough time in life
- made an early morning run to the store because someone “just realized” they needed something for school
- spent hours readying the house and preparing good food to make someone happy to have friends over for a night of fun
- started another day with a hopeful heart despite feeling as if I were unappreciated, unnecessary or unworthy of love
- expected people to work hard and focused for a good cause and to leave the socializing to before and after the event
- went shopping for a special outfit when shopping is known to be one of my least favorite activities
- made a favorite dish for someone even though I do not like it at all
So here I am “unempathetic”, crying silently under a blanket in my room because I don’t want someone to have that sight ingrained in their memory. Knowing they caused the pain and they can’t make words said unsaid.
Yep, that’s just me being utterly inconsiderate and rude. Again.
Sometimes, I don’t know how people can stand to live/be around me, especially when all I do is think of myself.
P.S. Don’t worry about me. I’m emotional and venting right now. I’ll talk with the person once I know I can keep my eyes from leaking when discussing the matter with them.